Shots taken in between my contractions

Ask Jeff to smuggle some cotton dweet candy for me. I am so tired that after hours, I tell jeff dun even bother to tok to me anymore.

I tried laughing gas and all else, and am really really tired after 5hrs+ of pain.

the most irritating part is the doctor-on-parol coming in to check dilation width with FINGERS!!!

by the time the doctor insert the 4th finger, i scolded "remove the fingers and f*** off, tat's bloody painful".

jeff apologise to the doctor, and i apologise later after 1 contraction ended...

The story begins....

Am on the way to work on 16th april 2008. Took 154 and alight at Jurong interchange. There is a pasar-malam, so I bought breakfast. I chose Ramly beef burger, bought a packet of durians and a coconut. And yes this is for breakfast, don't ask me why this weird combination.

The pain comes when I am buying ramly burger. It worsens and gets periodic. Description is like leg cramp, jus that the cramp is not on the legs, but like a rope tightening the tummy. It happens when i m queuing for the ramly burger. The irritating uncle still asks me as I look in pain and bends slightly "do you still want your burger?"

gosh, i paid the $, of course I want the burger. Thought it is false alarm as it is only 36 weeks, but the pain is getting untolerable. so i decided to take a cab to KK, at the roadside near bus interchange.
on the way, i called jeff. both of us agree and tink that should be false alarm labor pain, but go to hospital and check no harm.

at the hospital, upon scanning and checking, gynae-on-parol tells me i have dilated 4cm and have to stay in hospital, as delivery is anytime now. of course i am surprise, and called jeff to come and make admin arrangements. haiz, we have not choose the bed and worst of all, all baby stuff we have not buy yet, as parents say we have to wait till alst month then buy --> bantung.
jeff assures me, and tells me not to worry about anyting else. jus go and deliver.

the 1st ting that i ask jeff to help --> bring the video cam. I wan to film the whole delivery process!!! i am brought to the delivery labor room immeidiately, as my contractions is getting more regular.

Daddy, Mummy and baby Jet

Grandparents and Jet (3rd-4th month)

Jet is fortunate to have many people loving him, and I want him to have a happy childhood with lots love.

Jet on Magazine Cover

My boy's "Magazine" will be out in a week's time. He is featured on a magazine cover. :)
Will scan and post his photos once it is out.

Cannot wait to do the irritating thing to tell everyone that's my son.

In office, I will show everyone especially my boss that "This is the product that I have managed over the past 3 months. Now I am a Regional Product Manager, and I tink I can manage every product well that comes into my hands".
Hope the hint is clear that there may be pay raise, and/or Senior Manager or Director position coming along. Well, well, well... these are my dreams again, and I will work for them...

Hope and "Can-Fight-Any-Battle"

People tells me i can be intimidating, because of the persistence i have in the tings i do, and the drive that is always so positive and trying to do so many things to learn to balance tings well.
guess with my boy coming along, this persistence is even stronger.

Hope: It does not make me as what others said, "after you have your kids, kids are the most important and you should drop everyting to be with them". i do agree to a certain extend. but i tink having kids give me hope that I should love life and balance tings well, pursue my dreams as i wanted and to share my doings and realisation of dreams with them. i hope to bring them up in this way to love life, and to create and walk a path of life the way they want it. Not meaning to be selfish, for not living your life for others.
i always tink that when you tell others that i have hope because i live my life for you, and i tink the other person who hears it will feel stressful. I rather to tell myself i live for myself, and in my picture of life i want kids and love to share the life I have built with them. Even if I fall, I hope they are with me, and I will learn to make things work again, to show them that mummy can do it.

So now to me in everyting i do, it is not successes or failures. i will structure my way to work and reach successfully, and if i fail, i will make it work again. That will be the way I work now.
Share these thoughts with jeff as well...

"Can-Fight-Any-Battle": Yes i realise i can really fight any battle now, kinda feeling. I just feel that i have nothing to lose anymore. I will just charge, and forward.

http://sixgirlsaguy.livejournal.com

Well, I have not blog for 3 mths plus, and yes i am reallllyyy enjoying motherhood.
there's so much i want to pen-down in these 3 months, spending almost every 24hrs with my boy, Jet. I need to spend these 3 months to build the bond, and as well to maximise the use of my maternity leave, hence i drop down all else tasks that i tink deem not important at all.

a blessing my boy is healthy. ahve posted some photos to http://sixgirlsaguy.livejournal.com. And many photos on my facebook account. :)

he is really a little sumo to play with, and bathing him is a joy i look forward to almost everydae. love to play with his neh-nehs when bathing, and i tink i am getting perverted. :)
now he kicks and kicks when bathing, that i need to bath after that, but realise that he loves water like mummy, and will schedule to bring him swimming soon. also a sport i hope he will excel like me. :)